Xelax's Bio: [link]

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Well, looking back on my last journal, it looks like Ive failed most of those new year's resolutions... XD;; But as they say... every day is a new day, so no use in getting caught up over spilt milk.... or however that saying goes... XD;;

But yeah, I am indeed alive for those of you who weren't sure 8D;; My life has been a roollercoaster for the past few months though, I can assure ytou of that... and ~acsmith12 can also vouch for me, since she knoooows... although she also has her own challeges to deal with... so go give her love and support if you haven't already >__<;;

Sooo, not sure what all to go into... -__=;; Mostly been personal and family issues going on.... and as for my health... well... it's about the same as always XD;; My stomach seems to have been behaving for the most part though, which is a biiiig health..... at the moment I think it's mostly breathing issues and fatigure due to stress or what have you that have been cramping my style as of late... >___>
Aaaaand, for those who didn't know... AC's motherboard crashed, so she's been using my lovely lappy for a while now.. XD;; *misses it so bad, but I think she's gfonna get her own laptop soon so I'll have my baby back* >w<;; I swear tho... I currently have this horrible itch to draw right now XD;;

I went and read some of my old.... stories from middle school... since I couldn't draw worth shit back then.... and... oh maaaan... they were awful XD;; *doesn't know why that amuses me so much* and I kinda wanna try drawing some of those characters now that.. i -can- draw to some extent... XD;; just for fun~

Soo, that's about it... that I can think of anyway XD;; I love you guys muchly though, and I miss you all like crazy ;w; *keeps saying I'll try to be around more often but I seem to fail at keeping said promise* DX;; I will promise to keep trying tho'.... <333

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Aaaand, I fiinally got a kiriban... from Shakuuuuuuu~ >w< <3 *dieswithglee* LOL go give her love too XD

Aaand, because I said i would and I need something to keep me active, here's also a meme I got from her as well (basically meant for you guys tho'... whoever watches me and I shall respond to how you fill this out i think):



1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the "world peace", etc.). What are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you re-post this so I can fill it out for you?

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Well, I figured it was about time I updated this thing... it's been months, and I'm tired of knowing pill-induced writing is plastered on the front of my page XD;;;

Well... first of all, even though it's late... a very lovely Happy New Year's to everyone! XDD I honestly mean that.. people need to have more awesomeness in their lives... and a Merry Christmas and Halloween since I missed out on those, too... or any other holiday you might celebrate XD;;;

In any case... My biggest New Year's resolution is to not be sick... we'll see how that turns out... on a smaller note, I want to try and do more Art this year... I'm gonna see if I can't manage one piece a month.. I'm afraid to try harder than that... XD;; and I need to respond to my DA messages more regularly, too...
I haven't forgotten you guys, but some of you may end up with a response from months ago when I finally do get my ass in gear XD;;;

So.... on to more fun things.... I played Fallout 3 lately... haven't finished the game but I watched someone else do so... if you liked Oblivion, I definitely suggest checking it out... made by the same people, so has a lot of the same mechanics that made those games great, only more fleshed out and improved. It is more of a shooter game, though.... although you can specialize in melee or unarmed combat, it's more advantageous to be able to shoot things that are shooting you from a distance rather than having to run all the way up to them while they're whacking off your hit points.... XD;;; Overall, I loved it... I don't really mind how depressing a lot of people say it is, since I'm usually playing games for the gameplay and characters... and I love character creation.. it's a lot simpler than it was in Oblivion... XDD but... I hate not being able to jump as high... moving around is also a bit more tedious than in oblivion.. I like the leveling system better, bla blah...... and.... the opening was fantastic... XDDD I'm sorry, but opening a game with being born from your mother's womb is both disgusting and funny as shit... it amused me in any case.

I'll end that there... I also got to watch AC play the new Prince of Persia game, but... I didn't really fancy it that much... the characters were weak, the gameplay looked funky and clutzy, and the storyline made no sense.... the graphics were gorgeous, but that's about all I can say for it.... I was a fan of Prince of Persia, Sands of Time, but.... so far that's still my favorite of the franchise.

Anyway.... enough of game reviews....

Here's a little something I think everyone should check out:

Mary Sue definition: [link]
Even if you know for a fact that your characters aren't Mary Sues, I think it's interesting to see a good definition of them... since... not everyone knows what they are... and those of us who have learned through experience of what they are... might find it amusing.. I was amused in any case XD

And, a Mary Sue test: [link]
I'm a test addict, I will admit.. but only of extensive ones or ones like this... I think it was fun, and I think sometimes people need wake up calls.... BUT... for people who do take this test, remember it was generated by a computer... all it's doing is tallying certain key points that are common among Mary-Sues, so don't take it too personally... XD;; Also remember, when you're taking it... to keep in mind if your character's unique abilities are out of the norm for what they were intended for.... so... if they were a species where super powers are common place... it's different from a character where they have powers outside of the norm. ...Or if powers are common place, if they have extra funky powers than the norm... XD;;

Xelax got a 19. It would have been a ton higher if I didn't keep in mind that he was intended for a nobody club... and that he is a nobody... XD;; It's because of his appearance... that's where his score came from....

Zeke got a 21.... and... I will admit, I did go overboard with his emo past... that was my fault.. but everyone on the site had emo pasts at the time and I was feeling left out.. so.... lol.. I fail... -___-;;; Aside from the ridiculously emo past he's good, tho'... And, his test score is also lower than it should be because he's an Ace... Aces are meant to have perfect bodies... lol... mary sue race... XD;;


So anyway, yeah... I can't really think of anything else that's been going on lately.... I miss you guys and I swear I don't talk to you enough so... I'll try to do better, and you guys that I can't get a hold of need to give me more attention D< I miss you!! XD;;

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LOL 'bout time I did a new one of these, wouldn't you say? XXDD
*gets bored when I have to look at the same journal from a month ago*
But yes, for those people who are concerned about the Cold Order and when progress will be done and when we will be accepting new members.... Well, hopefully sooner rather than later. ^___^ We haven't abandoned the club, don't even worry about that.

Me and AC have both just been very busy, so serious info about TCO should start appearing next month if we're lucky.

We also want to give our friends from org-infinity a chance to figure out if they'd like to join later on, but right now.... Org-infinty is also very busy with an epic mission the entire club is a part of... so yes.... for everyon's sakes, progress on TCO will be postponed until a more reasonable time.


Now, onto the epic mission I was talking about. Org-Infinity FTW!! >___<;;; *can't tell you guys how stoked I was when reading that journal... and even more stoked when I ended up grouped with some of the most awesome people I could hope for* <333 Our part in this event will be gorgeous, I'm sure of that. *although depending on when the deadline is.... it might be a little late* AC's been working overtime for her school and drama department stuff (which you should know if you watch her account) So... I dunno, she worries me because she comes home everyday totally exhausted... ;__; *doesn't help the fact that she has a cold now, too.... but she better damned keep it to herself* XD;;
*can't afford to catch a cold, already sick enough as it is*

And that.... sorta leads me on to my current physical state of being. As far as we know (which is still next to nothing) Countless tests have proven that I don't have anything phenomenally life threatening, thank god for that... >___<;; But still... answers remain vague.... one of my specialists is convinced I have a strong allergy to whey.... and more than likely also wheat glutin... Sooooo, my entire diet has been changing... I wanted to start a civil war when I heard ice-cream was not allowed, but now I have found heavenly substitutes... *___* <3333 They taste sooo much better, and in my case they're far healthier for me than the real thing, so I've been pacified into going along with this latest plan.


However, that's just the first part of the plan.... and as all my doctors keep telling me, you have to fix both your body and your mind to heal completely.
That's always pissed me off so bad, I can't even tell you guys XD;;; They acted like I was severly depressed and suicidal or something, LMAO..... Buuuut, I have been seeing a counselor, too... granted, I haven't been feeling very good for a looooong loooong looooong time, so it's natural that you start feeling crap about yourself in the process.... But I -will- overcome it, I'm not so weak that I'll just keel over and die (figuratively speaking) without putting up a fight!!! >DDDD

But still, the emotional issues are the ones that seem more troublesome these days.... and I don't really know how to fix those.... XD;; And my counselor can only help so much given my situation..... so I'm not really sure how to even start there..... But I will work it out eventually, I promise!! >(

And I can't remember if there was anything else of importance that needed to be addressed here.... and I'm high on my sleep meds, so I'll probably end up editing this journal a ton when I wake up tomorrow.

But yes, good night everyone, promise I'll be online tomorrow! XDDD <333

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*sighs* OMG.... I am tired... D|

In any case, though, decided to update my journal since the last one was old and took up way too much space...

And to let you guys know that the club me and AC were talking about now has it's own page. It's not open for apps yet, and not even complete, but it has a lot of information that should give you guys a better idea of what it's about.

So yeah... don't expect much, but check it out --->


*sends AC love for the spiffy icon*

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Stuff for Others:

Birthday comic for ~acsmith12
Springshock/Xelax pic for *kiminess
Kemix Element pic for *kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for ~dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for ~dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
Pic for ~zombie-ade
Pic/comic(?) for *Kaikuu
Pic for *EiceartInbheLadarna
Pic for *shaku-chan
Pic for ~mr-romantic
(...lots of things I don't remember right now... HELP >__< )


Random Stuff:

Mission #2
Xelax world sheet
Xelax hair sheet
Xelax Character Sheet Update
Alyssa pics
Lots of Xelax stuff
Zeke stuff ;__; *been neglecting him lately*


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I.... am so dead tired.... D|
But that's not really what I was gonna say XDD LOL... Uh.. yeah... but I am.. I only got like... 3 hours of sleep over the past two days... XD;; *and I took a sorta half-nap today... so... I'm alive again, but I think I probably need another one* XD;;

Um.. so yes... my naturopath says I have a dairy allergy... D| *wants to shoot myself* And she wants me to stay away from dairy products as much as possible.. but... dude... I love dairy soooo effing much...... ;___; *doesn't know what I'll do without cheese or shit of some kind...* Aaand, I have a lot more pills to take... =___= *not sure what else they said... I was having difficulty paying attention* But apparently I'm still not eating enough... XD;;; *finds that a little hard to believe, but whatever....*

Uuuum... yeah, I dunno... -___=;; I'm also gonna cram a couple memes into this journal since... some of them look fun and.... wtf, you guys come up with so many so quickly XD;;;;

Got both of these from *shaku-chan >__>

----RP Meme----
[1] First of all, what username(s) do you go by?

Um..... XekeX..? XD;; Zeke, Koseishi, Tristen, Koseishin... etc, etc.... but I don't really use many of those anymore... -___=;

[2] Do you role-play any original characters (name them) ?

LOL.. I... only RP original characters... XD;; Um.... lately it's just been Xelax and Zeke.... but I also have Alex, Artemis, Cael, Angelo, Tristin..... and some characters I've never RPed before... like Adina and Subira... XD;;; And my retired characters... Demian (very first rp character), Azure, Red, Vince, Olivia, and Cystine XD;;; *coughs* She was such a godmod.....

[3] Role-play any character's (not original)?

Nope. I find it impossible to RP characters not of my own creation XD;

[4] Where do you tend to hang around?

Mainly DA.... >__> I dabble in other sites occasionally... but I can't handle more than one place seriously at a time XD;;

[5] Everyone has a favorite RP buddy, who's yours?

What, just one? XD;;; *like hell i can do that* I love my peeps.... =w=

Um... obviously I loooove rping with Gerbil... XDDD *she's put up with me for a veeery long time... and she has aaawesome lovely reptile characters* *__* <3

And I also love RPing with dorian... he's amazingly entertaining, and his characters are sooo freaking easy to RP with.... but we haven't rped for a while.. I fail so bad.... D|

And Shaku, course~ XDDDD *seriously... she's addictive.. it's like constant junk-food or something* =w=

Aaand.. of course there are others... I'm typically pretty easy to RP with... but these guys are pretty much my main source of RPing these days... >___>

[6] Any other RP friends?

LOL didn't I just say there were? XDDDD *wishes there were more than there are... buuut... probably a good thing that I have less distractions rather than many* XD;;;

[7] Where do you most hate to RP?

......I don't know... >___>;; I can't think of any particular place that bothers me.... *although I tend to avoid past sites that I used to be part of* XD;;;

[8] Which of your original characters are you most like?

Wtf... I don't know... XD;;;;; I tend to think I'm at least a little like all of them.... *thinks the best image of myself is just... mushing all my ocs into one person.. then you get something similar to myself* XD;;;; I guess.... um... I'm a biiit more like Alex than the others, though..? -__=;; *I did sorta half-attempt to base him off myself anyway...*

[9] Everyone tends to take a little bit of themselves and place- (...? part of this one got cut off... XD;; But I'm assuming it's talking about parts of yourself you put into OCs >__>;; ) <-- will assume the same thing... >__>

Xelax: .....Um.... I guess he's got my need to avoid situations he doesn't like... XD;;; *although i think he's typically a lot more confrontational than i am, too*
Zeke: LOLOL, uuhhh... I guess he's conflicted like I am..? Only moreso.... XD;;; *lmao.. why are my most retarded characters the ones I rp with the most?*

[10] Now, name the same characters again and tell us who their BFF is!

Xelax: He.... uh... he doesn't have a BFF.... XD;;; I guess Rdox would best fit that role, though.... and he tends to open up around Kemix more than other people, too... >__> But... he... more often than not has issues and closes himself up preeetty damned tight against other people, these days XD;;;
Zeke: LOL... Lee... obviously.... he hates everyone else and they hate him back... XD;;;;
*sighs* They need to learn some social skills, plz... >___>

[11] Any lovers?

Xelax: Rdox. Again.... XD;;; I dunno if he'd consider him a lover though.. he doesn't really label people like that..... he's just... the guy he loves and admires, etc, etc... XD;;;
Zeke: Lee... also again XD;;; He looooooves his iguana baby so bad XD;;;

[12] What do you most hate about role-playing?

.....Um..... I hate how immature people can be about it..... XD;;; *or... if... people can't RP... that tends to bug me* XD;;; LOL... I have high-standards...?

[13] Now. Be a dear and tag people.

Nuuuuuuu!!! I refuuuse!! D| People can do this if they want, tho'....


----iTunes Meme----

1] Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2] For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3] YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4] Tag three people.

All answers are set up like this~
Song - Artist
[ comment ]

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Oh My God - Pink
[Do I...? XD;; *LOL that sounds a little too enthusiastic for me...and... suddenly the question takes on new meanings >__>*]

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Perfekte Welle - Juli
[Hmm..... I think that's a german song.. but I could be wrong... *wishes I knew what it meant...* XD;; ]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The End of Heartache - Killswitch Engage
[;____; Um.... yeah... I really hope that's not how my life is destined to turn out... *lol damned song works too well* ]

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Contradanza - Vanessa-Mae
[Um.... I guess... XD;; *totally lacks that energy tho'*]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Remedy - Seether
[...Apparently my purpose in life is to... uh... suffer and make others suffer or something..? XD;; *listens to too much angry stuff to do this meme seriously*]

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
The Wicker Man - Iron Maiden
[Oh... so very, very true.. XDDD For once... "Hello to eternity and live for every breath"~ ]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Angels -Within Temptation
[.....*wonders if that's how all my old friends think of me* Oh gawd, I faaaail!!!!! TT_____TT ]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The Trooper - Iron Maiden
[LOLOLOL yeah right... that would be pretty hardcore tho~ XDDD *parents worst nightmare* ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
One More Try - Kristine W
[Wtf... am I really that needy..? XD;;; *I don't think I am..* ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND(S)?
Given Up - Linken Park
[...What does that even mean..? XD;;; *doesn't think my friends are that emo... or at least I hope they aren't??* D: *smothers you guys!!* ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Burn In My Light - Mercy Drive
[....My relationships are determined to be doomed, apparently... XD;;; ]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Right Side of the Bed - Atreyu
[Uh... yes and no.... wow... intense song... XD;;; *I fail at relationships...but... not just romance-related* ]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Vibrate - Petey Pablo
[O___o LOLOL No, I think I'll pass on that XDDD!! ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hollow - Threshold
[....I guess that would be truuue..... XD;;; LOL I don't trust people enough... *wtf my music betrays how pathetic I am on certain issues* ]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Vampire - Cradle of Filth
[What the...... hell no!! XD;;;; If I ever did have a wedding *which shall never happen in this lifetime* that... would not be played, plz XD;;;]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Whisky In The Jar - Metallica
[Hm... that might actually be nice XDDD *thinks I like that one* ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Beg For Me - Korn
[LOLOL uhhh... no.... now that's just silly XDDD *cracks up* ]

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Rusted - Psyclon Nine
[Uh... sure... don't see why not... >___> ]

And yeeaaah... do this if you want to XD;; It is very amusing....

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Stuff for Others:

Birthday comic for ~acsmith12
Springshock/Xelax pic for *kiminess
Kemix Element pic for *kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for *dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for *dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
Pic for ~zombie-ade
Pic/comic(?) for *Kaikuu
Pic for *EiceartInbheLadarna
Pic for *shaku-chan
Pic for *mr-romantic
(...lots of things I don't remember right now... HELP >__< )


Random Stuff:

Mission #2
Xelax world sheet
Xelax hair sheet
Xelax Character Sheet Update
Alyssa pics
Lots of Xelax stuff
Zeke stuff ;__; *been neglecting him lately*


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